When one door closes and the window’s stuck

This just screams "I'm desperate," so I figured it's a good fit for this post.

I don’t know about you, but for some reason, my major life stages occur around this theme: FAILURE.


In 2007, I competed for a spot that would have sent me to Australia on a Rotary Ambassadorial Scholarship. Result: I made it to the next round! But then I FAILED the round after that and someone else got it.

I really, really, really wanted to go abroad, so I applied to several international cruise ship companies and ended up working on cruise ships and traveling to 20 countries in 2008 and meeting some pretty cool people along the way. Life stage!

In 2009, two FAILURES happened: my travel plans to Costa Rica fell through and I didn’t make it to the next level of the U.S. Foreign Service Test, although I had passed the first round.

So instead of going to Costa Rica, I decided to visit L.A. for two weeks, mainly to  explore the notion of moving there since the entertainment industry has always been a draw for me. When I was 11 years old, I bought Disney Adventures magazine  and bored my family to tears with factoids about “The Lion King.”

los angeles, L.A.

I don't lie about these things, people.

For example, did you know Jonathan Taylor Thomas (or “JTT,” for girls in the know) bounced on his heels while yelling to achieve the right sound for Simba as he slides down the skeleton in the elephant graveyard? You don’t care? I have a feeling my family didn’t, either, but that’s my earliest memory of wanting to delve deeper into the movies.

los angeles, l.a.

So that’s how I ended up in L.A. in my latest career incarnation. Life stage!

And lastly, just this week, I FAILED to land a plum temp job that would have likely turned into something permanent. I’d grown complacent in my current (and unlikeable) temp job, but the news that I hadn’t gotten the job spurred me into action. Yesterday, I contacted all my industry friends asking if they knew of any jobs in TV production (hi, guys) and this morning, sent out 87 resumes to TV shows and movies in pre-production. Before lunch.

I have a feeling I know where this is going.

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2 Responses to When one door closes and the window’s stuck

  1. Jeff Grandon says:

    Hang in there, Steph. Just think of the character you’re building.

    Have you thought of becoming a country song lyricist? Your post titles are showing some real promise!

  2. Steph – I feel your pain. But check out your past posts about meeting Colin Firth and watching The Kings Speech and all the other fun things that you’ve experienced in LA so far. Better times are a’ comin!

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